It has been a while

Welcome back to the dead blog of Michelle *cues awkward claps* 

It has been so long I have forgotten that this silly blog still exists.

Typing out this post has probably been the longest it has taken me compared to all the other posts. I have no idea what to type since my brain is in a mess. Guess I will just vomit out what comes to my mind first.

2016 overall was great except I had way too many drunken nights mostly because I always let my emotions get the better of me and I let myself ballooned (I WAS SO FAT). Mid 2017 to around September 2018 was just a nightmare. During that period I completely lost myself. I couldn't deal with the accusations, heartbreak and especially with people telling me how I should live my life. It was so bad that I just let the influences of others change the way how I wanted my life to be. The ironic thing is that 3ish years ago I posted that regardless of how big or small the matter is, a person should be able to have control and decide what he/she wants to do with their lives. I was a complete wreck. Not sure if anyone could tell but I was so miserable. Either way I got blamed for a whole bunch of stuff.

Being told by the person that I love that I never done anything for him to love me more just made things worse (this happened in 2017 November). I never recovered from the trauma. The words still haunts me today. Being told I was never good enough/why I can't be better since I was young until now has taken it's toll. 

With 2018 coming to an end really soon, I figured it is time to 'fix' myself. Have the old bubbly and spontaneous Michelle back. I wanted to say crazy but we all know she is has this good fun crazy. The whole 'New Year New You' is just rubbish because if you are not going to change, NOTHING WILL CHANGE.

Always stay true and believe in yourself. Stay happy stay healthy.

XOXO,

Michelle

PS: Will try to blog/post more often (I have been saying this for years but it almost never happens)  

 

Hello 2016 Bye 2015

Hi all. Funny how I decide to blog again.

Yeah I know I do not really blog as often as before nor give like any update at all.
2015 has really been a roller coaster year. Met new people that are now so dear to me.
Did countless of insane shit like getting drunk and getting my heart broken.
Working different jobs I would never expect myself to do.
It made my year amazing so I will not complain. I am not the kind
that can handle a stagnant and mundane routine/life/job at all.

As I grew older, I have lesser expectation in life like no joke. I used to want this
and that but now my new year resolution is like so damn simple.
Simple is good. Anything complicated is never good news unless you can
give me a good example.

For 2016, my aim is
1. Be happy
2. Have fun
3. Earn more money
4. Do well in school

Simple right. Hahaha.

It is still shocking how 1 year has changed me.
Can't wait to see what 2016 has installed for me.
Sadly I became fatter towards the end of 2015 and I do not hope
to be a fatty ass in 2016. Even though I am at my "original" weight.
Well, I love food so being a fatty ass is like a no brainer.

This space might be turning private blog see how I feel about things
It is okay for my close friends to read this or anyone I consider my friend but more
or less I know they won't because I don't tell anyone.

Gonna catch the 7th episode of Star Wars with dupz so I need to sleep and HOPEFULLY
it will be SOON. Not forgetting if I am blessed with time to find Varlin and my overly attached
girlfriend RuiQi for baking but most likely Varlin will not be free. Saded.

My dear stomach, CAN YOU PLEASE DONT MAKE ME FEEL HUNGRY AT LIKE
6:24am. Why am I such a pig.

Wish me all the best for 2016 and I hope 2016 will treat you well.
Maybe I will update soon again. Who knows. PEACE OUT

XOXO
Michelle

I never change

Please refrain from reading the latest blog post from 2013. Haha.

After the nonsense rants, it is almost like I copied and re-wrote it even though it was written almost 1.5years back. I am really such a weird human.

PEACE OUT