Now I know why

All the things you made me do. Everything just became a bigger lie. I just so happen to be the toy you wanted back then. You should have told me Day One you won't wait. The thing is I never expext you to wait.

Thanks for being the greatest lie in my life. Thanks for hurting me time and time again. The moment you said I should be with someone that won't hurt me or make me cry, I believed in the greatest lie.

Don't worry. I won't want you ever again. The only thing I want that has anything to do with you, is to forget and everything that came with it. 

Written in Aug or earlier

Side note

I would love to see you in pain. I want to see you suffer. I want you to experience the pain I went through. Most of all, I want to escape this nightmare.

It all my fault

It was my fault that I had to move the fan out of the way.

It is my fault I refused to change my life for you.

It is my fault for loving.

It is my fault for letting myself believe in you.

It's my fault for wanting you.

It is my fault to believe there is a happily ever after with you.

It is my fault for letting you wreck me into pieces.